Only then did Silja become a bit relaxed. As long as they don't hurt each other it was fine. Because she was afraid that Benjamin would be the one to get hurt if that time came. Plus now that she was going to marry Donovan she wanted everyone to behave harmoniously like a family. Thinking about that suddenly one another thought surfaced in her head.
"Donovan, I have something to ask you,"
She looked at Donovan.
"Yes, what is it?" Donovan titled his head, giving her his full attention.
"Why do you want to marry me?" She blurted out the question that was in her heart for a long time.
"There are so many women out there who want to marry you at any cost but why did you choose me?" Silja wasn't stupid, she understood very well that how many perks it could bring one after marrying Donovan. Not only the woman who took part in the competition but there were so many others who wanted to marry him but couldn't take part in the competition, either because of lacking the appropriate status or other reasons. Then why did he choose her and fall in love with her?
She didn't know why but she thought about what Benjamin told her earlier. What if he was right and the only reason Donovan was marrying her was because of her powers?
''Why do you think is the reason?'' Donovan looked at her beautiful face and asked. actually, he also didn't know why too.
she had caught his attention the moment he saw her for the first time in the forest. Little Theo was about to attack her but instead of fear, the woman's eyes were filled with determination.
He remembered seeing his own reflection in her eyes and that day something clicked in his mind.
And after that, she started to crawl into his mind, and before he could even guess more she was already stuck in his head.
"It is because of my powers?'' siljapaused a question.
"I know you have already cleared this once but still I could not but feel that is the case,'' Silja tried to make him understand.
since Benjamin has mentioned that her mind once again has started to dwell on that possibility.
''Have you ever taken a good look at yourself?''
Suddenly Donovan asked and Silja raised her head in confusion. ''What you mean?''
''If you had, had you wouldn't be asking this question to me right now,'' Donovan looked at her with his unfathomable eyes, boring them deep in hers.
Silja looked at his confusion.
"Look at these eyes aren't they capable of making one fall in those deep Hazel orbs," Donovan raised his hand and gently touched her eyes. Her wings like lashes fluttered at the touch of his fingers.
"And this rosy cheeks, every time they turned pink, they just make me want to kiss them, and let's not forget this small nose. Ahh...I have never seen a beauty like you," Donovan traced her whole face as he described her all features.
Silja was speechless.
She looked at him and shot him a glare.
"That all? So you only wanted to marry me because of my beauty?" She hissed angrily.
"What else?" Donovan raised his eyebrows.
"I have no other qualities than this," Silja asked furiously.
"Ohh one more, there is something else too and that is the main reason I like you," Donovan nodded his head.
Silja looked at him curiously.
"This cherry red lips and that slick tongue of yours, how can I forget them," Donovan traced his thumb on her lips and licked his own lips gently.
Silja narrowed her eyes and slapped his hand away.
"Hahaha," Donovan couldn't help but laugh out loud.
''You are a lot more than without your powers and if I only wanted your powers I didn't need to marry you. I have more than thousands of ways to make you subdue to work for me,'' Donovan held her hand and this time he said sincerely, ''Im a very confident person Silja. I know what I need and how I can get that. if your powers were what I need I will never sacrifice myself any marry you. but what I want is you. with power or without powers, you are mine and you always will be,'' Donovan gave a full explanation. If it was someone else he would have never wasted this many words on anyone else.
Silja felt her heart flutter as she heard those words from him which were uttered with utmost sincerity.
''Do you have any other doubts?'' Donovan raised her chin and asked.
He then took her face in his hand and kissed her forehead. ''Our journey has just begun and there are many things that you don't know about yourself, but we can discover it together, slowly,''
"Okay,'' Silja nodded her head and with a rush of emotions, she pulled him in her arms and hugged him tightly.
Donovan was shocked for a moment before he wrapped his hand around her. It took Silja a moment before she calmed down to let him go.
Donovan smiled, he was glad that she has finally started to lower her ground.
Silja held his hand and observed his face, she noticed light dark circles around his eyes. He hasn't slept peacefully for two days now, she remembered.
"Aren't you tried?" She asked him, and Donovan nodded his head.
Then he thought of something and turned around and lay down on the bed while he rested his head on Silja's lap.
"Im tired very much," Donovan then took her both hands and put them on his chest.
Silja narrowed her eyes, the man was becoming more and more handsy around her. But when she thought about how tired he must be after everything she let him have his ways. After all his wounds were still new. But what she didn't know was that those few days of sleepless nights were nothing to Donovan, he had experienced worse days than that.
And his wounds have been already healed by her blood.
"Do you have any special requests for our wedding day? For decoration, or cloths?" Donovan who was sleeping with closed eyes remember and opened his eyes.
He almost forgets to ask her about that.
Silja stayed silent for a while and kept looking at him in silence. He thought that she might be thinking what he wanted.
"Is it necessary to plan a wedding this earlier? Im not ready Donovan," but after a long moment of silence she finally looked down at him and asked.
A frown instantly settled down on Donovan's face.
"Why are you not ready?" He asked. Hasn't he cleared all her doubts? Then why she still has hesitation. Donovan couldn't help but curse his luck. In whole four continents, there were no women who can resist his charm. Only his face was enough to make ladies fawn over him, not to forget his status as the prince of North.
But the only woman he wanted was rejecting his proposal, not just once but she has done that countless times by now.
Was god taking revenge on the behalf of all the ladies that he has rejected previously?
When Silja saw him frowning irritably she bit down on her lips hesitantly.
Was she being too much?
But what can she do, it was even hard to believe that the man she used to hate a couple of weeks ago was now going to be her husband. Her heart was swaying between two different feelings.
"I need time, for this relationship, and to get everything clearly. We...we barely know each other," she voiced out her problems.
Donovan was quick to sit up as she heard that.
"If it's like that we can take everything slowly, I won't hurry you for anything. You can take your time to know about me," Donovan took her hand in his and spoke with a smile. A smile spread on Silja's lips as she felt a bit relaxed. But his next word made her lips twitch.
"But for that, we don't need to cancel our wedding. You want to know me? Sure. We will have a whole life ahead with each other for you to know me as much as you want and however, you want. I'm all yours," Donovan smirked and as he replied.
Silja couldn't help but glare at him and turned around with dissatisfaction.
She thought he was taking her seriously. It was her marriage after all, can't she have some saying in it? Even though Silja was very obedient since she was a child she has an extreme sense of self-confidence and pride. She didn't like to do things that her heart don't allow her. After all, she was a princess in the end and she was spoiled by her father and brother since childhood.. She has the right to choose everything for herself and king Evan has given her full freedom.