Chapter 65: 2-18: Hayli Reads Terra’s Diary

Hayli

Terra swore, storming into the study my father was using, myself, the human and Caela following behind her. My father stared up and sighed, "Oh, I see you all are back. And you brought the Augur."

"Where is it?"

"Where is what?"

"In Quaza's room, there were writings. Where are they, Swyr?"

"Those? Oh, my assistant- Honi's new maid, was collecting them and ordering them with some papers of her own. Something about having found the rest of them scattered around. I let her to see how repair runes were done. Girl, here. Bring the writings."

From his left came a red headed olive-skinned woman with two goat horns and four pairs of ears two human-like and two goat ears wearing a maid outfit with jeans instead of tights carrying a bunch of bound papers appeared. At the same time three of us girls responded in the same way, yelling in shock, surprise, and happiness, "Zurah?"

That was definitely the woman that had been at the duchess's dinner. The human embraced Zurah, squealing a little. Zurah placed the papers on a nearby table and pushed the human off. "Nana? Why are you here?"

"I was in jail?"

"Don't you get tired of those? Oh, hello again, Terra, Hayli, Caela."

"Why do you have my diary?"

"Well, I found it spread about after the train blew up and I felt like collecting them. I found the other half when cleaning around and decided to repair and rebind them."

Terra grabbed it and handed her diary to me. "Here. Go. Read. I need to talk to your father. Alone."

"Okay. Good luck."

She gave me a confused look but then motioned my father farther back into the study. I went and dashed to Quaza's room sat down on the bed and opened the diary to the first page and began to read.

The first chapter was... familiar. Like myself, she had just had an introduction. And the familiar ()'s to put asides and comments. I did feel odd reading her use her deadname and dead pronouns. But I guess she didn't know back then. I turned, moving past to the second chapter wondering how long until I would show up. Well, better keep reading, right? (Right.) Thanks, me. (No, problem me.) (Stop talking to yourself- Terra.) No. (No.) 

 

Terra

"What is it you wish to speak about Augur?" Swyr asked as I glared at him.

"Augur?"

"Hmm. You spoke with that one and still do not know? Well, I am not the one to tell you then."

"Leave me alone. I am not telling you again."

"Fine. I have no quarrel with you now. Besides from what I have read from what my daughter has never been happier than when she is with you. That is enough for me to leave you be, no matter my personal opinion on you."

"Oh. Okay then." I frowned, feeling a little unsatisfied with how easy that had been.

"Now... I do need to have words with you on how you let my daughter go so fast with you."

"I think I hear Caela calling for me."

 

Hayli 

I frowned, having just gotten to where I showed up. Was I really that nervous? I mean for a person I thought was a guy. I assume I thought Terra was a guy- but there was some... stammers and half-finished words that made me think I knew more than Terra knew. 

I continued on flipping to next chapter, which only reinforced my idea that I somehow clocked Terra before she knew. I mean the not liking being referred to as "sir" was a dead giveaway. I was jealous of past me, getting to watch Terra hatch and actually remember it. It wasn't fair my memories were being weird about that time. 

Next chapter- and now I was happy I wasn't remembering stuff, or I'd never be able to look her in the eyes. How was I that unable to just ask her to be my friend? What was wrong with me. It was a wonder that she wasn't completely creeped out at me. 

I slapped my face and shook my head. Continue on Hayli, no stopping the cringe from flowing now.

 

Terra

"Okay... to prove I'm not that Zurah if you meet again, how about we all say our deadnames?" Zurah suggested.

"My deadname is known to everyone." I replied. "It's Earth."

Zurah nodded, "Mine was Sutue. I really didn't have it long." She looked over at Nana.

"Um... technically I don't have one but Lyre if we're counting what it should be."

"Oh, we have the same deadname." Caela remarked with a little emotion.

"I am still not sure how this will prove anything." I say leaning back in my chair.

"Well, it wouldn't hurt."

"So... do you know why exactly the other 'you' is working with the humans?" Caela asked.

"No idea, but I know it's probably bad."

"I'm guessing the benefactor that have been giving away rune items is also a friend of yours?"

"Probably the other half of the goddess that Nana has the hand of." At Zurah's reply the hand emerged from behind Nana and waved at us.

"That is so weird." Caela said shaking the hand before it returned to Nana's shadow. 

"I can say the same for your magic system." Nana replied.

"Hey, Nana, Zurah. Why didn't you two forget me? Did you eat some dirt or something?"

"I am not sure I want to ask. No. I'm going to assume either theirs some runes on us I forgot about or more likely those resets made us more resistant to stuff like that." Zurah said.

"Resets?"

"Not enough time in the day."

"Well, I can summarize it." Nana said.

Swyr sat down and shook his head, "When Zurah offered to explain to me, she took two days."

"I assume my love also forgot she didn't need to explain how they happened."

"That's important Nana."

"Not to the what, but to the why."

"Just get on with your condensed explanation then."

Nana smiled and began.

 

Hayli

Oh, yeah, I can definitely see the Terra. The play was bad enough, but the chapter after proved I knew it. And showed she was already thinking of it. Like the fact she could say she identified with a trans character and not put it together was impressive. Then again, I literally said T to her, and she didn't question it so she did seem like the type who could ignore that. 

And the potion I bought came up again. It was clearly the change potion I used. Oh god did we indirectly kiss when she drinks it? Like my saliva and hers mixing. Hot. I mean, I hope I wiped it clean first.

Next chapter. I can feel the reveal coming. 

Okay, I'm glad I seem to be respec ting her to come to me and talk on her own- even though I know that's not in my nature to wait for someone else. Eh, boring talk about that dumb spell that made everyone forget I was a hero. And... I really hope that hypnosis was the one meant to help me sleep and not... I mean if Terra agreed to it, it would be fine. I mean... deities, I feel like a creep writing this. Right, moving on. I am terrified by Terra's speedreading. Like Terra, three books in like a day? Please let them digest. Like even just a little. Terra really does seem like she does like Fredericka as a friend in a strange way. 

And Terra made me sad for the twink and her. Well, at least that part didn't last long as it went into... oh fuck me, she really did see me when I was a kid. Actually, did she realize that when she wrote this? It sure seemed like she didn't. So, she figured it out later? That... I have no idea if that made it better or worse. Okay, next is her agreeing to fight Fredericka and... oh... that seems like something to ask about later. And to hide from everyone else. I assume that cursed spot on her was part of it, whatever it was.

And I made Fredericka drag Terra to me. That felt more like me. Oh, Terra. Coming out? You dumb little... I can sympathize with past me for being blunter with her than we probably should have. And ignoring me saying she'd come out? Let us just ignore her reaction to being told I wouldn't be showing Hypnosis magic for now. Showing off. Showing off. Boring Island spell talk... food. Question time! Here we go. Hm, she thought Nox was dead. That was sad. Terra is also bad at lying. Like so, bad. I mean since I believed some things, she told me before we started dating, I might not be the best to say that but still, you can read it as well as I.

Ah! There we are. Just straight saying it while not saying it. I can't blame her confusion, that isn't a normal question I asked. And I called her Terra- oh, right that precognition thing. That explains why I was so sure. I appreciate her censoring my deadname. She's such a good girl. Denial. Asking what the potion does... being given the chance to say no and leave. And she clearly isn't from the comment on going with Quaza- whatever that meant. 

And she drank it- and passed out. Well... I created my girlfriend. Well, I guess she wasn't my girlfriend yet. 

And I slept in bed with her like a weirdo. Everyone is in my room, blah blah blah. Showing Terra how to be a girl like the great teacher I am... and I asked her out immediately. Way to be a stereotype me. 

Well, better keep going to see how impatient we were- I mean remember our past together.

Terra

"That seems like bullshit."

"Yeah, that is what I'd expect people who didn't experience it to say."

"Honestly we only did it three times. Lyrica and Cult Leader Zurah would be able to say more on it, but they didn't get sent to another continent."

"Maybe they did, we can't really tell."

"Eh, I asked the hand, and it signed Lyrica isn't on this continent."

"Figures. They'd be helpful."

I coughed, "Helpful to what."

She looked at Swyr. "Whatever the humans are planning- or rather what they assume will happen when the Twins are freed."

"Oh... that. Is it really that bad?"

"Depends on who you are. You... well that's mixed." Swyr replied.

"Let me guess it has to do with that Augur title?"

"Yes... and that one you spoke with."

"I assume you aren't going to explain still?"

"I am not one to tell you, as I have said."

"Right... So, Nana. Why don't you tell me more about this shared Lyrica. She seems important if she went through the resets more than you."

"Sure. And I can say all the bad things about her I never could with her and her girlfriends around."

"Twins Nana, you can always insult people at any time."

"Swyr can you tell my girlfriend to get drinks?"

Swyr laughed, "Well?"

Zurah sighed and stood up and left as Nana began to speak.

 

Hayli

I had forgotten a lot about the other Heroes, it is weird to be reminded of them. As much as Terra cared to write about them. It really wasn't anything I cared about though- what I cared about was the fact we got a bed together immediately. Like not even an argument beyond Terra asking if I wanted it. Vindication- and also it makes sense that she was fine with me sleeping with her. It didn't make what I thought was our first meeting being my face stuffed into her chest any less embarrassing to me, but it made me feel a little better.

The next though separated us as I apparently got mad at her for so easily bending to... being held over a cliff and asked to slow down and tone down our public displays of affection. I mean I get why I might have been upset and kicked her out of the bed as punishment but now with no strong just started dating emotions like I probably had then, I could tell Terra wasn't doing anything wrong. Besides that, I still can't see any signs of Olli's plan. I mean I assume one of them was a mole, but they all act normal. I mean Ophelia is... well, Terra recognized her. But that just felt like stereotyping based on her belief system. 

Next chapter and my anger at her lasted as long as I thought it would, immediately forgiving her in the next chapter. Of course, my note (I know my handwriting) made me want to cover my face and scream. But besides that, it was normal. I had forgotten about the letter. Not sure how since I could still read every human tongue thanks to where it led me. Seriously. What did my father do? Well, next chapter-

Terra. Please stop using chapters to add throwaway information you learned later. You used ink for it, and I can tell it was done later off that. I know my girlfriend can be lazy while writing but still. I would never do that. Okay, now for the next real chapter, I guess. And she has a giant ink spill and an apology note. Wow. Even when she writes stuff, she doesn't think is important it doesn't get in.

I kind of remember this part- like the whole not using my hydrosense until asked- but it never really came up in my mind to use it- honest. Arrival at the lake... Terra goes and sleeps up on an overhang... um. And now Terra is talking with another version of herself in her dreams. Weird. Going to ignore that for now. Moving on. 

Oh, finally some interaction! I wonder what she said about my-

"I looked at her teal green swimsuit. It was a one piece with a golden ring around her belly button and frills around her hips. I'd have said more on its looks, but I was too embarrassed to look at her and commit to memory how she looked."

Terra, you fucking lesbian, that's all? I... bottom. Sub. I swear to fuck, I will make you describe me and my clothes in such embarrassing detail that you die. I will make you use the medium of writing properly, to make sure people know how you see me- which I can only assume is like a goddess. (Stop saying I'm being egotistical, father!)

Terra seemed upset at all of us speaking in Latvisch, enough to read a textbook. The nerd.  Well, next I have to remember how for some reason the only Humons there got the most First Place votes to go find the ruins. Surely that was not based on my scales and was because they thought us best for the task. 

Oh... no. I didn't do that licking thing without asking her- ugh. That is... okay I may have lied about it being a species thing- I just think... that's hot to do. Well- oh.

Kiss! First kiss! Revenge kiss! Terra was sufficiently embarrassed. A cute little bundle of a stammering human blush. Moving past some pointless information and more jealous Terra! I mean she says she isn't, but I know in my heart she was. It was also so cute she was upset our first kiss wasn't special enough. Oh- Terra can speak Royal Demon Tongue but didn't realize it. She really is my dumbass. And I am my dumbass for using it like that to test her. I mean letting anyone even think I might have a Demon royalty as a father seemed like a bad idea on an island full of Heroes. 

Terra is now writing about the trek to the ruins. The mud, the weird animal we all ate and... she ate dirt. She got so hungry she ate dirt. Like her brother does. And got separated from the rest of the group. Huh. 

I flipped through more pages. Until Terra suddenly got her ass killed. Like she should be dead. That is literally what should have happened. I mean her continued existence says otherwise but still. She got gorged by what I think is an ancient. I should hug her when I'm done.

 

Terra

"Oh, wow. That sound exhausting to deal with." I said leaning back.

"Yeah, resets make you loosen your view on how meaningful life is. But Lyrica at least had an anchor based in love unlike other me, who had one in worship."

"I'd say dealing with the L's and Deidre would make anyone a bit insane."

"I mean she chose to date Lara and Deidre." I said, sipping on some water.

"Technically Lara chose to force her into a poly relationship." Nana corrected.

"So, if Cultist Zurah is you and Lyrica is you. Do you have crushes on the others other?"

"No. Nana is nothing like Lyrica. She's much better."

"And my Zurah is just insane in the normal way."

"Now... it's someone else's turn to talk. Caela. How about you tell us about yourself?" 

"Why me?"

"You look like you have some embarrassing stories is all."

Caela turned to me. "Do I?"

"I mean... I have one I could tell them."

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"I- Please do not. I will embarrass myself well enough on my own."

"Very well. Dig that grave."

 

Hayli

Okay. Terra knew Olli. Like get a hug from her type of know. Good to know... And I clearly had to have a hand in the saving of Terra. I mean it explains how we both ended up in Honipolis. But...  And... oh. She met Ilyah. My cousin and didn't recognize me or think it was weird how similar we looked. Wow. And she... met Quaza when she was captured. Oh. I can see why she got that blood pact instead of death for killing her grandfather. Cute egg Terra moment that makes me wish I had met her sooner...  And then past Terra getting in trouble. Was she cursed with bad luck?

Museum. Meeting Ilyah and me being happy to see her again. Oh yeah, I remember Shera I think next is when we meet Nox for the first time. I wonder if Terra figured out that she was Avery or not. Surely when I turn the page, I will not see her skipping it.

That's my handwriting. Oh... I wrote a chapter. From my POV of how we met. Okay, just need to steel myself before the inevitable. Let's see what I wrote.

Hm.

Hm.

Hm. 

There's the vision of the future- and I apparently saw us doing things. Of course. Even my future vision takes things fast. Heh. And that explains my lack of functioning earlier. And I told Sairah about- oh no. I am so glad she had a cooler head. Just asking if she wanted to be a girl that fast might have just made it harder for her to accept herself. I also noticed her clear discomfort at being called sir immediately. And Terra really did mishear or ignore my flubs of almost outing her to herself.

AHHHHHHHHH! No. No! Why did I masturbate to her that same day? Why did I write it down- oh my deities, Terra has read this. I could have just not written it. In fact, I did it twice? How horny was I? I mean I know how horny I am but even that seems insane. But... naked Terra being flashed into my head would probably make me excited as well.

Ugh. I really did plan her coming out. I guess if Terra read it, she didn't mind but still... I should apologize for it, right?  And... Sairah set up the way I'd get Terra. Okay. That wasn't too bad.

Next is a cute chapter where I go more jealous of Quaza and- oh no, Terra put a random drop of her depressing pass in the middle of it. But we were cute. I love her so much. That has nothing to do with the chapter, I just wanted the Terra reading this to know that. (♥♥♥-Terra) 

OH, COME THE FUCK ON TERRA! FLASHBACKS? Just pointless fucking flashbacks? I take back that 'I love you' for this shit. (????-Terra) (I'm sorry, I love you still, but you are so lazy with the book.)

Quaza.

Oh... that's how... I can only imagine my jealousy. I mean... Terra still clearly had complicated feelings for her and, I'm going to guess Quaza probably teased her a lot- as she was known to do. Yep. My brain is a detective. Immediate teasing… and I am falling for it. Of course. But now I will know better. After all, Terra loves me alone. 

Okay… Terra taking with Nox… okay, she just mentioned Avery straight to her face. Either she didn’t know or just enjoyed messing with her big sister. I’m guessing the second. 

Blood ritual… gross. Skipping ahead a bit- Okay more solo Terra-Hayli stuff. Let’s see what-

ARGH! 

No- no. That is not my first time. Oh deities, that is so embarrassing. I basically forced myself on her. I know she consented but still. Ughhh. Why. I feel gross. But also, I feel… Ughhhh. Ughhhhhhhh. I really should make sure Terra gets treated better in bed. 

Ahhh. There. Cute us. I think she’s mentioned how much she loves me more than what a hero does. Wasn’t this supposed to be about something else? Eh. I don’t mind.

 

Terra

“And then my grandfather looked me dead in the face and asked if I was ‘Lyre’s Girlfriend’ and I almost broke.”

“Why did you think being Caela during a family party was a good idea?” I asked.

“I was really dysphoric that day, okay?”

"Uh, huh."

Swyr coughed. "Okay. Okay. Enough torturing the girl. Terra. Would you mind talking with me about that... magic of yours."

"Not magic."

"Whatever it is, shall we discuss it?"

"Let me punch you in the gut."

"Terra! You can't ask the Demon Lord to let you-"

"As repayment for killing you?"

"Of course."

Swyr stood up, "One shot."

I clenched my hand into a fist and swung it into his stomach as hard as I could. I felt him give a bit and bend just slightly down. He coughed a little as I sat back down. "You are lucky you're my futur- girlfriend's father." 

"What was that you were about to say?" Caela teased. (Yeah, Terra, what was that? - Hayli) 

"Cae. Fire or wind." I demanded, ignoring the demoness.

"I don't think we should show off that thing you use in the library."

"Caela. Just a little flame."

Caela grumbled and, on her pinkie, produced the smallest spark. I produced a DS orb on my own pinkie, and it went in. Then a two-inch-tall pillar of flame was released from my pinkie, burning bright and burning fast. 

"Neat parlor trick." Swyr remarked.

"Wind." I told Caela.

She sent a small gust at me, and it went into the orb. I asked for fire, and she gave me that to. I grabbed the metal tray and pressed, releasing the combined magic and melting the metal into the shape of my palm. "Parlor trick, huh?" I said wiping some sweat off my brow.

"Interesting. But it seems like it puts stress on you."

"Yes. But that's more due to something else."

"And I take it that is how you got free of my magic back at my house?"

"You know death by starvation would have broken that promise you made your daughter."

"Well, I- Um- I shall be going back to my room now." Swyr stood up and quicky left the room leaving us girls to awkwardly look at each other for a few good minutes until moving on to idle conversations.

 

Hayli

Well, the next chapter only told me that Caela had a crush on Terra from meeting her when they were younger. Did everyone else in our group meet and interact with Terra when they were younger but me? I was jealous. Besides that, it was nice to see Terra manage to not skip anything despite the fact that I didn't think she thought most of these people were important- especially with some scratched out notes in the margins. It was funny to think Caela was that stupid. I could remember sparing against boymode her- and there was a gap in time that Terra fit in- further cementing that this was accurate, not like I didn't trust my girlfriend. This would have been an insane effort for a lie. 

The next chapter was usually mostly useless fare from Terra. Just some conversations that ended up meaning nothing. I guess the corridor conversation was important later, but not for what we had talked about using it for. Besides that, my girlfriend once again makes it hard for me to be soft on her in bed with that ask she made to past me. I know she's a bottom but still, can't she be a bit more vanilla?

Next up is the ball. The party. Immediately Terra impresses me with actually knowing what a crespine headdress is. I do think more should have been made of the comments Olli's humons made given what occurred. Terra once again censored my deadname when I stated it.

The ritual is as weird as I remember mine- and I feel a sense of jealousy at Quaza for kissing her- which... oh deities, that's why I took it. I was so mad at her for kissing Terra that I made her do it and she kissed me as well. Did that count as cheating on Terra? Did Terra's ritual count as cheating on me? No, Hayli, stop thinking like that. It was part of the ritual. And Terra clearly didn't think anything of it beyond that. I mean I was clearly jealous of it after feeling a kiss from Quaza for myself. And Terra continued to not know what a bottom or top was. I still cannot believe she doesn't know what those mean.

And... oh, the second me chapter. And, flipping forward to check... Also, the last. [Editor's Note: Chapter 1-39 and certain comments by authors and friends were done later.] More rehash I suppose, but time to read.

Okay, I came out just to make her realize she couldn't date me as a guy. And I somehow didn't remember Olli. Besides that... well, yep. I somehow masturbated my embarrassment away apparently. How long had that taken? Terra also apparently had liked being called bestie which for someone who thought they were male then was... well, how many boys call each other besties? I bet if I hadn't had the vision and had just decided to make a friend with Terra and I saw that I might have figured out she was an egg on like how she said or reacted to things. I mean even through her pre-Terra writing I could see egg signs. Like she literally tried to hold dresses up to her, which she somehow forgot to mention in her egg rant of the same event. And apparently, she spent the entire time feeling her stubble and cringing. I was glad I had transitioned before I ever had facial hair.

Oh, Terra didn't write about this. Must be one of the hang outs she mentioned but didn't write about. "Vern's the only guy I ever hung out with." Only guy. I mean it probably wasn't anything, but it could be read that Terra didn't consider herself a guy completely. Or past me was so desperate for any sign of Terra. And Terra mentions her past crush on Quaza. Ugh. I get she had bad taste with crushes, like the insane priestess who mind controlled us apparently, but still mentioning it this much is only serving to make me want to make sure she has moved on completely from her.

And Egg. Like the clear imagining herself as a girl and the "unfortunately" was just egg shit. Then asking how accepted we were in Hill Valley. And then admitting she liked femme individuals but didn't feel straight was... yeah. I liked girls when I was younger but never felt like I was straight before I realized I was a girl and could be a girl. Apparently Quaza and Hayli and I are going to be a trio for a while from past me's vision- hopefully not a trio in the triangle sense- full or fake like most in books. And I was glad past me was as confident as I was now. I mean of course I was the cutest and most beautiful.

Blah, blah. Olli betrayal. Island. Oh, come on! Quaza slept in the same bed as us? Why is she like that? If she tried that now I'd kindly ask to let us two sleeps elsewhere and then continue to sleep with her if she didn't want us to since we are bound to her by blood. But I would ask every day until I wore her down or she commanded me to stop asking. Terra continuing to think of me was... nice. It did feel like she was slowly becoming a bit too co-dependent on me, but I mean... it felt nice that she cared about me.

And we apparently still had more sex. Wow. Past me was horny. I mean kicking the princess out to bust in Terra's ass was something else. I am totally not imagining what we might have done that made her take an hour to get up out of bed after. Not much in this one.

And Terra skipped more writing. Wow. Who would have thought? And I was promised two chapters and I got none. (If I add your diary you have like eighteen. - Terra.) (That doesn't count.) (You don't even remember that stuff well right now. -Terra.) (Fine. But if I remember you will give me your diary to add it.) (If. - Terra.) 

Terra was aware that Nox was her sister. Like she even said she was ignoring it in her writing, but she did know. Sometimes I wondered if her ability to realize things was random or it got better after she became Terra or more likely Nox looked exactly like his sister but older and Nox was bad at making her suspicions lessen. Stop fucking mentioning the kiss with Quaza, everyone. More talking to herself in a dream state to end the chapter. 

I yawned. It was getting late. Better speed it up.

 

Terra

I sliced off a few pieces of ciabatta and poured a mix of olive oil, salt, dry parmesan and red pepper flakes in a small bowl to dip in and sat down at a small table in the kitchen. Caela was my sole companion, the foreigners going off to enjoy their reunion.

"You think Hayli is done reading your diary yet?"

"I will wait out here as long as I can. I hate watching people read what I write."

"Does that happen often?"

"It did."

Caela took a piece of bread and dipped it. "So. I'm the only single one here now. I want the princess and Nox back already so we can be single together."

"Who's to say they didn't get girlfriends on their job like Hayli did."

"Nox maybe, but Quaza?"

I snorted. "Oh, you want to say that in front of her."

"Yes. But I like not being punished so no."

"Don't worry. You'll find someone."

She sighed looking at me. "I doubt it. I'm jealous of Hayli. I want to find someone that easily."

"I wouldn't call that easy. We nearly died."

"I-" She swallowed. "Not what I meant, Terra."

I nodded. "Sorry."

"It's fine. But if I find someone I like, I will use you two for a double date to wingwoman for me."

I smiled, "That seems like the worst idea you could have come up with."

 

Hayli

Boring chapter ignored. Next is... mostly boring. There's a weird weapon but nothing really important here either. I mean I'm glad Terra is fine with my boob obsession, and embarrassed how open I am about that but... I'm bored. I hope something happens soon. Wait... this was right before...

Yep. That request. Ugh. Wow. I sure do hate Quaza it seems. How she hadn't punished me was a mystery. But another chapter I could speed through easily. Next!

Oh. Zurah. Huh. They had met before. That's nice to know. I- do not know how I feel about people joking that Terra, Quaza, Caela and I were in the same relationship. Terra is mine. I might share her with Caela like in a "show her what a date was like" type of deal but Quaza? No. She already owns her technically. I need to stop worrying about the past so much. 

Train goes boom. Ah, I guess... this is where I end up getting controlled.

Terra met Nana like she said. Man, her Dark Surface is cool. Rune Magic... of course Terra would learn of it. Explains why she was never in need of an explanation. Quaza isn't one to explain things that well, you know.

Caela tells everyone about how we got controlled. Skip, skip, skip. Terra fights with Quaza. Um... doesn't get maimed which is good. Then literally everyone else gets controlled and Terra is fucked. And then thanks to her codependency to me decides to use the key from the island to teleport us north. Ah. That's how father came into this.

Okay. Wow. I hate these chapters. I hate how I treat Terra. How absolutely miserable she is. Like... wow. I knew I was a bit rude while obey Azrael, but this was worse when it's towards the woman I loved. I mean I flirted with... men to make her mad. I want to fucking die. I hate myself. Gross, disgusting, sinner. I should apologize for all that. Even though it wasn't fully me, she saw my form say and do those things. I need Terra to cuddle with soon. Not like there's all that much left. Keep going.

Oh. That's where the Rune Item news came from. Bianca... I can't believe I ever looked up to the High Mother. Ugh. Okay... Oh. Wow. Baby Olli is kind of cute. I can see why they were friends. I guess she got jaded as she grew up or she was better at faking enthusiasm towards her marks. Wait, why am I thinking a kid had marks.

Okay. Here we go up the mountain. I get knocked out and we enter my father's house. And... yep. This is it. I remember waking up and the vague human. Oh no. I kicked her? What was wrong with me. I couldn't let her finish that statement. I mean I figured I didn't remember her but... you know I know me, and I might have just agreed I was her girlfriend to make my father mad. I mean that's not what Terra would have wanted but it was better than... right. Then whatever my dad did happened. Yep. Really not much left.

Terra... ugh. I really don't want to know what she'd have done if we hadn't met again. Like she was just mentioning me or trying to avoid it a lot in this one. Okay. Wow. She knew I was pretending the entire time. I... ugh. My mother would be sad by my performance then. But I guess she did know me better than I had assumed so, evens out.

Terra skipped the Society and instead wrote a two-hundred-and-fifty-word rant instead. Her time management is a mystery. And... huh? Oh god dad. No. You tried to- YOU KILLED MY GIRLFRIEND? What the fuck. Why didn't I remember that? How was she still alive now? Terra didn't know clearly either.

Okay. I... don't care to read the recent stuff now. I mean I was there. I know what happens. And I might die if I have to read the confession again and the kiss after. I sighed and put it down and laid down on the bed to wait for Terra.

 

Terra

I knocked on the door and Hayli told me to come in. I moved in and laid next to Hayli who hugged me. 

"So. How was the invasion of my privacy."

"You really love me."

"Obviously."

"Even after I was a dick to you while serving Azrael and after my dad killed you."

"I mean he didn't. I think I just fainted."

Hayli shushed me with a kiss. "I love you. Tomorrow. A date. I need to make up for lost time."

"Okay. Where?"

"Just a picnic. I need time with you before I do other things."

"What do you mean by that?"

"I mean we've already had actual sex and you didn't tell me?"

"Why would I tell you that?"

"So, I knew it was fine to do it already?"

"You feel safe doing it on the Princesses bed?" I smiled.

"Yes." 

"Well, we have an hour before it's too late to get up early for a date so..." I started stripping down.

Hayli nodded, "Good girl." And pinned me to the bed with a kiss, "I'll make sure this is something you'll be embarrassed to even mention in your diary."

I rolled my eyes. "Just fuck me already Hayli."

And then of course, Hayli obliged me.