Jessie didn't understand what was going on, at one moment she was so angry and upset and the next she didn't understand anything. All she knew was that if they was a way to have Jason even closer than he already was she wanted it, and the thought shook her to her core. The realisation that even though she wanted nothing more than to get her life back, she didn't mind just sitting still if he was there.
Plus she never hated spending his money, even now. She felt bad but still she liked it, she could live like this. She would always want her life back but she could live like this as well. As long as he was here.
This was exactly what she was afraid of, she wouldn't want to be an actress anymore, she would get too lazy and too comfortable. Her independence was everything, how could she just give it away so willingly. She froze...
Jason sensing her tense up underneath him, he stopped his heavenly ministrations and looked into her eyes with curiosity. "What's wrong?" He asked.
She shook her head, "you should go, you have work."
He tilted his head at her, as a small frown alighted his features. "Are you seriously still mad?"
"No, it's just... you should go." She said trying to pry him off. Her gaze anywhere but his eyes. She trembled slightly, she looked quietly frantic but what made him let her go in that moment was the fear he saw in her eyes.
Sitting back he allowed her sit up and almost immediately she slipped off the bed, grabbed her phone and without a backward glance she was out of the room.
He couldn't help the sigh that escaped his lips and he kneaded his fingers through his hair. Pushing backwards he got off her bed as well. How did they manage to fight every single day?
"Matt what's on my schedule?" He asked placing his phone on the dresser as he got up to walk into his wardrobe after leaving Jessie's room.
"You have a meeting with the board of directors, a few documents. And an appointment." He stated, his last remark sounding oddly strange.
"An appointment?"
"With the chair-" he started but bit his tongue and cleared his throat. "With Mr. Kang, your father."
Jason shut his eyes in frustration, sighing heavily, now what did that old man want?
"Jamie?!" Lenora gasped as she walked out to see Jamie leaning aganist her car.
His usual gaze directed at the floor lifted and turned to her. "Hi." He said softly.
She blinked and almost pinched herself to see if it was real. "Hi." She replied.
"I forgot to say something last night." He started and she felt air leave her lungs, last night... last night had been one of the happiest memories she would ever have and she didn't understand what good she did off late but whatever kept bringing Jamie to her she would thank over and over.
"Me first" she blurted out unable to take it as her heart hammered aganist her chest. "Why did you do that? Defend me before Jessie, I didn't deserve that." She said.
Jamie who had honestly not been expecting that question frowned slightly at first. He tilted his head at her and sighed. "Is that really what you want to know?"
He nodded and began to answer but froze when words wouldn't come out if his mouth.
"What's wrong?" She asked.
"I'm not sure, I don't know." He replied.
She frowned "you don't know what?"
"I don't know why I defended you, but what I already said. You made a mistake you're already attoning for it." He said. "You're not a bad person, you're just confused."
"Confused?"
"Yeah, you're trying to find the right place and right way to do things, you just need a little help." He stated bluntly.
And Lenora's throat closed up, choking her. Why was she surprised? He hadn't gotten his memories back completely, so how could he... love her? But this was who Jamie was, flawlessly good.
Blinking back the tears, she sniffled and faced him. "So are you here to help me?"
"Well, I'm short of work right now, and I need something to do. And while the end goal is exposing Patricia Lee to the public and revealing what she did to the Actress Jessie Marin. I guess I could help." He smiled.
"Only you would make such a determined statement with a smile." She shook her head. "And what makes you think I want to change?"
He shrugged. "Because you're a good person."
She fought the urge to roll her eyes, he honestly felt naive and innocent. It was cute but also tiring, until when she going to get her reserved and shy Jamie? Not that this free, cheeky and cute version of himself wasn't as though she didn't like this version but she fell in love with a different man. But still she wouldn't walk away until he rejected her finally by himself for the last time. The Jamie she fell in love with... so now she would hold unto the faith, that she could still be loved by him.
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Patricia sat very still as she stared herself in the mirror. She had remained in that spot for almost eight hours, unmoving. She wasn't well, she wasn't fine, she wasn't okay.
Her head still head an open but healing wound she refused to treat at the side of her head. She was still in the once flawless dress that was now crumpled and torn, her hair was in such a frenzy it would have frightened anyone that saw it.
After Jason left so suddenly last night she walked into her bathroom to wash her face but the moment she sat at her dressing table for her skincare routine she could not stand, she could not move or even think. Her mind kept replaying scenes from her past, scenes that where embedded deep in her heart. Scenes that were now the only reason she kept moving forward even when she felt like dying.
So she refused to shut her eyes, because the moment she did she would go back, back to the time her heart was full. And she couldn't wish for anything more, but even then...