Chapter 140 - President Xie Teaches You the Right Way to Love Someone
Translated by Eve
Edited by Serefina
11. President Xie Teaches You the Right Way to Love Someone
The moment Xie He bit into the pearl, Saj knew that something was wrong. For the first time, an immense sense of danger enveloped him, telling him he would soon die!
Saj’s gaze was unwavering as he stared into Xie He’s eyes. In that instant, he made a decision. He parted his lips, swallowing down the holy weapon, and then pushed Xie He far away from him.
God’s Tear exploded inside of Saj. The intense light energy burned him from within. Saj gritted his teeth, doing his best to use his body as a barrier to suppress the suddenly erupting light energy! He could not let it out…he couldn’t let any of it out. Xie He had yet to escape. Xie He would die…so he had to completely suppress it!
Saj knelt with one knee on the ground, face twisted in pain. His body temperature skyrocketed. He was like a scorching hot furnace.
Xie He tumbled to the earth. Although God’s Tear had been swallowed by Saj the moment Xie He had bitten it to pieces, the mere trickles of light energy that had come out had nearly killed him. He felt the traces of light energy slowly destroying his body, causing him immense suffering. However, the pain could not triumph over his shock…because he knew that Saj had willingly swallowed God’s Tear.
Xie He stared at Saj, lost in a daze…. Why…?
Just how, Saj had been injured. Why did he protect Xie He and swallow the holy weapon of light? Did he not know that he would die if he did this?
Saj looked at Xie He and slowly spat out, “Go.”
Xie He finally couldn’t stop himself from asking. His voice trembled, “Why…?”
Saj said, “Because I’m your god, so I must protect you.”
When Xie He heard Saj’s words and looked into those pitch-black eyes…all of his previous resolve crumbled.
His god had abandoned him. All of his faith and perseverance had been nothing but a sham and illusion. After enduring so much torment, he had chosen to risk it all on one throw…but in the end, the one who did not abandon him and would risk it all to protect him had been the God of Darkness, whom he hated.
Xie He felt his eyes grow teary. He felt as if he couldn’t hold on any longer.
This wicked body that had been stained tortured him at all times. But the determination in his heart had never wavered…until now. Now, he could not continue to delude himself, believing that his heart had not been swayed in the least, that it had not hesitated for even a second.
But this wasn’t right…this was evil….
If he was really destined to Fall…he would rather choose death.
Luckily, he was about to die. Everything would finally end.
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【444:Host dada. /(ㄒoㄒ)/~~】
【Xie He:Baby, what’s wrong? Smile.JPG】
【444:You’re about to die again. /(ㄒoㄒ)/~~】
【Xie He: Typically speaking, you should have already gotten used to this considering how many times I’ve already died. But considering your current performance, it’s obvious that there’s a bit of an issue with your memory faculties, and your emotional and personification programs also still have room for improvement.】
【444:……】This was disgraceful towards him, a high-level AI! So angry! But he doesn’t dare say that out loud…._(:зゝ∠)_
【Xie He:Also, if I analyze your words, I can tell that Saj will certainly live. Otherwise, you wouldn’t be here crying over me but rather the mission.】
【444:……】
【Xie He:How is he?】
【444:His injuries are very severe. Moreover, he has been constantly injecting you with energy to preserve your life. The situation does not look optimistic!】
【Xie He:It’s fine. Trust that he can make it through this. Smile.JPG】
【444:Why are you so sure he won’t die? ( ⊙ o ⊙ )】
【Xie He:That’s easy. He’s a being that required all the gods working together to seal. He is also the only living ancient god left. Of course he wouldn’t die so easily. Furthermore, he’s been freed for so long. He must have collected quite a lot of faith and thus restored a good portion of his strength. Did you think that aside from pleasuring me to the Heavens, he is unable to do any real work, Baby?】
【444:Oh….】He really did think that._(:зゝ∠)_
&#k3010;Xie He&#kUU1J;And it’s only by having him swallow it that we can inflict any substantial damage to him. Otherwise, how else can we make a megalomaniac such as himself understand what it means to reflect if we don’t make him suffer some setbacks? Hehe.&#k3011;
【444:……】So Host dada knew that Saj was going to swallow it? Suddenly, he felt bad for the capture target….
&#k3010;Xie He&#kUU1J;Moreover, look how moving the end result is? It’s simply killing two birds with one stone. &#k1U642; &#k3011;
【444:_(:зゝ∠)_】I have nothing to say.
Xie He could sense that his body had sustained very serious injuries. He was not a god with a formidable body. The light energy emitted from God’s Tear constantly corroded the dark energy within him. This was a fatal injury to a completely transformed dark elf such as himself.
The only reason he had yet to die was because Saj had been injecting dark energy into his body non-stop to counteract the light energy. The two energies lashed out within him. Although he had a 60% pain barrier, it was still difficult to bear.
Xie He slowly opened his eyes. He saw Saj sitting next to him, his black hair flowing down. His already deathly pale complexion was even more white, making him look almost transparent. There was hidden exhaustion within the pitch-black eyes on that handsome, cold face. When Saj saw that Xie He had woken up, he seemed excited. He bent down to look at Xie He and said quietly, “You’ve finally woken up.”
For the last ten or so days, he had been incessantly pouring dark energy into Xie He’s body. He didn’t even have the time to care about his own injuries. When he had thought of the possibility that this elf may never wake again…that he will disappear from this world…for the first time, Saj felt real fear.
The evil god that had always brought fear unto other people…could actually feel fear himself.
Xie He looked at Saj. He looked at the once insufferably arrogant, powerful god. At this moment, he was looking at Xie He with worry in his eyes. Pain and internal dilemma flickered within Xie He’s eyes. He would rather that this demon roared at him furiously, killed him, or tormented him…. He didn’t want Saj to look at him with such deep affection.
This would only make his heart, that was no longer resolute, fall even faster.
Xie He slowly parted his lips. Because he had been seared by light energy, his voice was no longer beautiful. It sounded hoarse and raspy. “You should kill me.”
Saj said, “No, I won’t.”
Xie He felt his vision go fuzzy. He slowly said, “Why? I tricked you, betrayed you. Aren’t you the most evil and heartless of gods? Why are you saving me?”
Saj looked down at Xie He. There was a layer of water over those emerald eyes. They glistened. His pink lips parted and shut and the other’s long blond hair laid splayed out on the bed…. The elf was as beautiful as ever. It was only his anger that was missing. It was as if he could disappear at any moment. Saj held Xie He’s hand tightly. He dipped his head and planted a soft kiss on the other’s lips. “Because I love you.”
My beloved, beautiful elf, I have always loved you. Every day and every night, I fall in love with you even more.
When Xie He heard this, tears streaked down from the corners of his eyes. Saj really loved him.
Unfortunately…Xie He never wanted his love.
Xie He’s lips moved slightly. “You said it before…as long as I am willing to worship you, you will make any of my wishes come true.”
Saj looked at him earnestly and said, “Yes.”
Xie He laughed. His eyes were glued onto Saj. He said, “I’m willing to worship you. Please grant me a serene, peaceful and eternal…death.”
Saj’s expression changed abruptly.
Xie He looked at Saj quietly, as if waiting for his response.
Saj peered into Xie He’s limpid eyes…. He did not doubt that the words coming out of Xie He’s mouth this time were fake. He was not being forced or coerced. This was his true wish.
He was finally willing to worship him, but what he wanted was not his love or protection. He didn’t want anything except death.
To Xie He, if he had to worship the Darkness, he might as well choose death.
This was an irremediable, hopeless situation.
Saj finally understood that. He had finally gotten what he wanted. However, the moment he obtained it, he found he was about to lose it.
If the price of having your faith is that I have to lose you, I would rather not have it.
If the price of having you love me is that I have to lose you, then I would rather you continued hating me.
【Ding, the target Saj’s Favourability Value +2. The current Favourability Value is 94.】
Deep pain emerged in Saj’s eyes. He said, “I cannot grant you this request.”
I can make any other of your wishes come true…but this is the only one I cannot agree to.
Xie He sighed very softly. He didn’t say a thing and just shut his eyes. He could feel his body deteriorating. Even with Saj’s energy injections, he would not be able to hold on for long.
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Xie He spent the majority of his time asleep. He spent very little of it awake.
The next time he awoke, he saw Amakiir bent over his bed. The young silver-haired elf girl was lying there quietly. Xie He looked at her with nostalgia in his eyes. He called out softly, “Amakiir….”
Amakiir woke up very quickly. She was a very light sleeper. When she saw that Xie He was awake, tears streamed down her cheeks as she was overcome with emotion. “Your Excellency Galan….”
Xie He saw that her clothes were tidy and her complexion was very good. He relaxed. Because he hadn’t killed Saj, he had been very concerned over Saj taking out his fury on the Elves. That was why he had been doing all he could to endure. He said, “How did you come here?”
Amakiir sobbed, “The God of Darkness said that you would soon die so he let us come see you. Everyone has come, but we were afraid of disturbing you. Wait a second…I’ll go call them.” After saying this, she ran out of the room.
A moment later, the other elves all quietly filed in. Their movements were quiet, as if they were all afraid of alarming Xie He. Xie He saw Thamior, Mileya, and many other familiar faces. They were all his deeply beloved clansmen.
Xie He’s eyes moistened in that instant. They were all still alive and well…
Mileya passed through the crowd and gazed at Xie He with affection. She said in a soft voice, “My child, do not feel aggrieved or sad. We all know that your heart has never been corrupted by the Darkness. No matter how you transform in appearance, you will always be our comrade. We will always love you and will not abandon you so easily. Okay?”
Xie He’s lips quivered. How could he face his clansmen, who cherished and trusted him? How could he tell them that his heart had wavered?
How could he tell them that the God of Light that they all trusted wasn’t actually worthy of respect? And that the God of Darkness wasn’t actually so ruthless?
No…this secret should just disappear in the depths of his heart. He will take it with him to his grave.
Thamior also came over. He grabbed Xie He’s hand and said with red eyes, “Your Excellency Galan, we will wait for your recovery. You will get better, right?”
Xie He felt like there was something stuck in his throat. He could not utter a word. He could only nod.
But he knew that this was all fake. He was lying to them. He would not be able to get better….
The elves stared at Xie He. They didn’t dare delay him from his rest. Furthermore, Saj did not permit them to stay here for long. They could only leave reluctantly. They told Xie He that they would come see him tomorrow.
Xie He watched as the elves left. As if all the energy in his body had left him too, he shut his eyes tiredly.
A moment later, the door was opened again. Saj helped Xie He up to a sitting position and quietly said, “Eat something.”
Xie He slowly opened his eyes again and saw a tray of fresh fruits and vegetables by his bedside.
Pain filled his eyes.
Saj could see the suffering and misery in Xie He’s eyes and couldn’t help but recall his own cruel deeds. His heart clenched. In the past, he had wholeheartedly wanted to dye this beautiful elf black. He wanted to change him into the appearance he wanted. But he had been wrong. What he loved was the elf in his original splendor. What he loved was the pure, beautiful him….
He was so obsessed with this elf. He wanted to attain his subservience and love in body and soul no matter what methods needed to be employed.
But love could not be obtained from force or temptation. Only respect, protection and companionship could produce this beautiful emotion. Unfortunately, he realized this too late.
However, what made him feel even greater despair was that the moment he realized this was also the moment he was about to lose the other.
He who lived in darkness could not attain the light.
Xie He stared at the tray of fruits, slowly reaching out. Beneath Saj’s anticipating and nervous gaze, he swatted the tray to the ground. The fruits tumbled to the ground and Xie He flashed a cool smile. He said, “Please grant me death.”
Aside from this, he had nothing else to say to Saj.
Pain continued to deepen in Saj’s eyes. His hands were clenched tightly and he abruptly stood up, leaving.
【Xie He:This is truly a tragic cycle. Sigh.JPG】
【444:I feel really sad. QAQ】Yingyingying….
【Xie He:I’ve gone hungry for so many days already. Relying on dark energy to live every day makes me feel like I’m living on an IV drop. I need delicious roasted meat, steamed meat and stir-fried meat, not fruits. ???? 】
【444:……】
【Xie He:The moment they fall in love with me is the moment they lose me. Why don’t they understand that all I need is good food and a healthy sex life? Smile.JPG】
【444:O(∩_∩)O~】Something must have short-circuited in his brain just now for him to feel sad. He will never say it out loud again. So embarrassing!
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Xie He fell asleep. Saj continued to transfer dark energy to him. Although it was like this, Xie He’s body still worsened at a staggering rate. He was just an elf. His body could not endure the clash of dark and light energy inside of him. It pushed his body to the brink of collapse.
Furthermore, Xie He had no will to live. This made Saj feel powerless.
Xie He’s time awake gradually decreased. Today, after the elves had left after visiting him, Saj came by again to give him more dark energy.
Saj’s fingertips swept over Xie He’s cheeks, and then stroked his soft blond hair. He kissed the other tenderly on the lips. His dark eyes were full of anguish and his voice was both quiet and hoarse. “Live. If you dare give up, I’ll kill them all, letting them accompany you to the grave.”
These words finally conjured a reaction from Xie He. Xie He struggled with all his might to open his eyes, eyelashes fluttering. A sliver of anger appeared in Xie He’s eyes.
But Saj laughed. This was the first in a long time since he’s seen any flicker of emotion in Xie He’s eyes. He hugged Xie He gently and whispered into his ears, “I’m the evilest, most coldhearted evil god there is. I’m capable of doing anything. Don’t ignore my threat. For their sake…you must do your best to live on.”
It’s fine like this. Continue to hate me, detest me, see me as your enemy….
I don’t hope for your love anymore. As long as you live, then it doesn’t matter if I’m hated.
Probably because of Saj’s threat, but Xie He finally became a bit more spirited. The next time Saj brought fruits, even though he had no appetite, Xie He forced himself to eat a bit. He also did his best to use his own inner power to fight against the light energy’s blaze.
Because he was proactively fighting back, his body’s decline slowed down just a bit…
Saj still came by every day, always injecting Xie He with energy to prolong the latter’s life. However, he very soon realized that this was useless. Even if it slowed down the deterioration, he could do nothing but slow it down….. They could not turn back the damage done to Xie He’s body. He was walking towards death.
He finally realized that he was not omnipotent.
He couldn’t even save the person he loved.
【Xie He:Such boring days, ah. Smile.JPG 】
【444:(⊙o⊙) Do you want to watch some movies? There have been many new movies added recently~】
【Xie He:No, it’s fine. I think Saj-Saj will soon be enlightened and make a decision.】
【444:What?】
【Xie He:Baby, do you know what kind of love people lose themselves in the most?】
【444:?】
【Xie He:The more one invests in a romantic relationship, the more they’ll lose oneself in it. It’s the same for both females and males. Actually, it’s really easy to understand why they think that way. Between a bag you bought for a million yuan versus a bag you bought for fifty yuan, of course you would treasure the million yuan bag more and be more reluctant to throw it away. Make a man invest more and more into a relationship until it makes him feel pained to invest anymore. The more one invests into a relationship, the more precious it will be and the less able one is to let go. Smile.JPG】
【444:…Can love be measured like that? @[email protected]】
【Xie He:Of course it can, Baby. ???? 】
【Xie He:Saj-Saj has invested so much in me. Isn’t it a loss if I were to die? So that I can continue living, he will continue to pay even more. 】
【444:……】
The author has something to say:
Writer’s block, yingyingying. _(:зゝ∠)_
Eve: Big arc 6 feels.
sere: omo mood. Also since im reading this chapter while still editing the last arc, I still feel like Ye Jinzhou is a much much shittier guy. At least this guy is an evil god so we know he is originally evil?? I feel like my moral scale is also being corrupted