...... For the first time in my life, I suspected an auditory hallucination.
I've wanted this for so long. I don't even remember when. By the time I realized it, I already wanted Kai.
I never thought I'd hear those words from Deanna.
I've always wanted to have a baby," he said.
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--When Rikku carried a letter on her powerful wings announcing Diana's imminent death, Kai had just completed his task and was on his way back to the Imperial Palace. Now that he had come this far, Brad alone could carry out the mission without any problems. Leaving the rest to him, Kai hastily changed his destination from Iftane to Lars. There was no way to replace the horse, so he kept his speed low, rested the horse and himself after dark, and hurried to Deanna with ...... maximum efficiency and haste.
(--Dee?)
In the morning, when they were about to arrive at the imperial womb of Ra's, a sign passed through Kai's mind: apart from the threat to his life, Diana's heart and presence were more violent than he had ever felt before. There was no doubt that something was wrong.
We can't afford to be complacent at this point. Kai drove his horse, and when it reached its limit, he hurried to the Imperial Palace on his own, not caring about the danger of being found. He snuck into the imperial womb with the "hidden form" spell that Sora had given him in case of emergency, searched the room for any sign of Diana and Rita, and climbed up to the balcony.
"His Highness told me...
I saw Diana, completely lost in herself, crying and clinging to Rita.
(Dee ......!)
I'm not sure if this is a good idea or not, but it's a good idea. It's a good idea to have a good idea of what you're looking for. This is the first time I've ever seen such a thing.
Following Rita's words, Kai hid himself on the balcony for a moment.
(Now...)
Seriously, he heard words that made him doubt his own ears.
He couldn't believe his ears, he couldn't believe reality, and the words poured out one after another.
When I thought that Kai's warmth was the only thing that made me feel special, and the warmth of his touch made me happy and want ...... more, I knew I couldn't do it. I thought, "If I know any more, I'll never be able to leave you.
...... That's what Kai has been hoping for all along - even though he knows it's shallow. I've always wished that my warmth would be the only thing engraved on Deanna that would never go away.
If Kai knew how I felt, he would not be able to abandon me. ...... In the future, even if you can do something you want to do better than being by my side, you may not be able to go down the path you want because you are worried about me.
...... There is no way that you can do anything you want to do more than being around Deanna in the future, until you die. You can't say that you won't find something that interests you, but if that means you can't be around Deanna, there's no room to think about which one you'll choose.
Kai is not the kind person that Deanna thinks he is. He spoils Deanna to the point where she can clearly see it herself, and is kind to her. He is not kind to everyone, but only to Deanna.
For Kai, Deanna is all he has.
I want you to live your life the way you want, to have the happiness and the future that you want. Because she's important to me, because I love her.
That's right. --That's what Kai thinks, too.
I'm sure you're not the only one.
It's just that ...... is the only woman that I love.
(......) I'm not sure if this is...
I'm not sure if this is what you mean by "double love". I'm not sure if this is a good idea or not.
(Dee likes ...... me?)
I knew that she liked me. I'm not sure if it's a good idea, but it's a good idea. She doesn't hate or dislike people who are hostile to her. I think it would be more difficult to be hated.
But... Diana's "likes" are not of many kinds. Family love, friendship, and affection for one's people ...... can be roughly divided into three categories.
I knew that she liked me as a friend. I knew that they liked me as a friend, and I was confident that they would allow me a very close position in their friendship.
So, ...... this turn of events was unexpected.
I can't even imagine the day when Kai will choose to leave me for his own happiness. I'm going to miss him so much.
...... Is this really, really, really real? I'm not sure if this is real or not. "I'm going to miss you so much," she says.
If it is "love" that makes you want something so fiercely that you can't wish for the happiness of the person you love the most,......, I didn't want to know. I wanted to live my whole life without knowing...!
I'm not sure what to make of this.
I'm not sure if this is a dream or not.
I'm not sure if this is a good idea, but I'm sure it's a good idea.
...... I didn't realize when I had given up hiding.
When I found myself in the middle of the balcony, I was just cowering there, looking at Deanna's sobbing back.
I'm not sure if this is a good idea, but it's a good idea.
It's a good idea to have a good idea of what you're looking for. I'm sure you'll find a lot of people who'd like to know more about this.
Yes, of course. ......
But...
But..." - Here, he cut off his words unnaturally. I'm not sure if you've heard of it or not.
I'm not sure what to make of it, but it's my theory. --"This is just my theory, but if our selfishness is a miracle match. There's nothing wrong with that, is there?
Rita, ......?
I'm not sure what you mean by that. You can't know whether your feelings are really selfish or not until you ask the other person.
I'm not sure what to make of this, but I think it's a good idea. --And then her eyes caught Kai's.
Instantly. Deanna's breathing, her movements, her ...... thoughts, stopped.
(Ah--)
I can't believe it. I'm so happy.
It seems that what's happening to me right now is neither an auditory hallucination nor a hallucination.
It seems to be real.
So, I'll leave the rest to you.
It's a good idea to have a good idea of what's going on in your life. I'm not sure what to make of that.
It's a good idea to take a look at the actual information on the web and also the web site.
--But she's so far away from the enemy that her body moves before she can even think about it.
Dee.
I call her the name that I love more than anything and hug her from behind. Her shoulders bounced and her body trembled from ...... agitation.
"You're ......
"Yeah. I'm home, Dee.
Welcome back, ......, but why?
What?
Because if everything goes as planned, ...... you're supposed to arrive at the harem last night or this morning, right?
No. ...... If Dee's in Lars, I'll be here. I'm going back to Dee, I don't need to go to Stanza's harem.
You'll be able to find a lot more than just a few of these in the marketplace. In the face of this miraculous reality, I was filled with so much love and euphoria that I realized my self-control had been blown away more than I thought possible.
--Diana, still trembling in my arms.
But why ...... am I here, in Lars?
I'm sure you'll be glad to hear that. --I'll have to thank them later. I couldn't have gotten there in time if I'd stopped at Iftane.
"In time." ......
He said he wanted ...... me. He said my warmth was special. She said she'd miss me. I had to go straight from the place to get to Dee in time for her to cry.
Deanna, in my arms, gasped heavily.
I'm sure you'll be happy to know that I'm not the only one who's a bit of a jerk.
I'm not sure if you've heard of it, but I've heard of it.
I'm sorry, sir. I'm sorry--
"...... Dee?
I didn't mean to tell you. I wasn't going to tell you. ...... I wasn't going to tell you until I was dead.
What are you talking about?
You don't have to worry about me. I don't want to be a burden to you, even if it kills me.
......
Just pretend I didn't hear that. Just forget about it, please.
Just shut up, Dee.
The hoop is off. He tells her in her ear, and at the same time, he embraces the body of the woman he loves so tightly and deeply.
You hold her body so tightly and so deeply that she can't speak or even breathe.
I don't know how many times I have to say it before you understand. I'm not going to let Dee become a burden or a burden to me.
".......
I'm sorry, but I can't do what Dee is asking right now. Maybe she didn't want me to hear it, but I'm glad she did. I'll never forget it.
I don't know if Dee wanted me to hear this, but I'm glad I did.
I'm so happy to know that Dee wants me so badly that she's willing to lose herself in it. That's why I'm so f*cking happy.
"I don't know ......!
I don't know," she said, dropping a soft kiss on Deanna's raspy cheek.
I've been wanting Dee for a long time now, and I've been wanting her for a long time now. I'll wager I want Dee more than she wants me. I'm so happy that the woman I crave so much wants me as much as I want her. ...... Honestly, I'm so happy that my self-control has been blown away and I'm so happy that I'm dreaming.
Deanna's movements, this time, came to a complete halt. She stopped so perfectly that I waited for a while and didn't see any response, so I became worried that she might have fainted.
When I looked into Deanna's face, I saw that she hadn't fainted, but her eyes were rolled up to the utmost limit, and her entire face, not just her cheeks, were bright red.
"......, did you hear me?
"Yeah, I heard you, but ......
But?
It's just, it's hard to believe. ......
Isn't it awful?
It's not my chi. It's my ears.
Yeah, I can see that. That's me.
I smiled a little and shifted my position. --I wanted to hug Deanna properly and squarely.
I put my arms around her back and hugged her loosely, and Deanna looked up at me with a wry smile.
"......What's wrong?
"Kai ...... said you wanted me.
Yeah, you said that.
"...... Really?
Oh, you're not sure?
I mean, I've never felt that kind of vibe from ...... you before.
It's also possible that Dee is particularly insensitive to that kind of sentiment towards her. ...... Well, I've been trying pretty hard to keep it under control.
It's a good idea to have a good idea of what you're looking for. It's a good idea to have a good idea of what you're going to be doing.
In the event that you're not sure what you're looking for, you'll be able to find out more about it here.
"......
I'm not sure if you've heard of this, but I'm sure you've heard of it. In the event that you have any questions concerning where and how to use the internet, you can call us at the web site.
That's why you ...... kept me in check?
I'm sure I messed up from time to time. --My mental strength couldn't handle Dee's cuteness.
...... What's that?
Look at your face. --It's so cute, it makes me want you more and more.
I'm not sure what to do, but I'm going to do it. It's a shame that Kai's psyche isn't sturdy enough to be able to restrain himself perfectly when shown such things.
I'm not sure what to do, but I'd like to know what you think.
"Kai .......
Let me see, Dee.
But, ......
If you don't want to, I can't force you. But ...... I want to see it.
I want to see .......
I don't care what Dee's wearing, I'm not gonna be offended. You don't like ......?
No, not .......
I knew it from the moment I hugged her. I knew from the moment I hugged her that underneath this robe was not an Elgrand dress, but a stanza costume.
The realization that Deanna was about to be colored by another man without my knowledge fueled a jealousy I had never known before.
He unfastened the clasp to the bottom and ...... slowly slipped the robe off Deanna.
...... It's a little less revealing than I thought it would be.
...... It's for riding, you know. I'm sure you'll be happy to hear that.
I see. --But the fabric is too thin and the legs and shoulders are showing, so it's not enough to protect you from falling off.
Although she was not dressed like the women in the harem, hiding only her breasts and waist, she was dressed in a tight-fitting upper garment that clearly showed the lines of her body, sarongs that went down to her knees, and arm covers that covered her wrists and elbows. For women in Ergland, this would be light clothing, little more than underwear. To go out and ride a horse with just a robe on top of this would have been ...... terrifying and unsettling.
Despite her notorious reputation for playing around with men, Diana herself is a man of firm chastity. Even though she had always told herself that it was best for her to stay in her hometown, being forced to act in a way that deviated from the values she had been accustomed to since birth sometimes caused her unimaginable emotional pain.
When Deanna turned her head down, Kai held her softly in his arms.
"Thanks, Dee. --You did great.
"Kai. ......
"No matter what you wear, you're still Dee. I've said it before, but I'm fine with anything Dee. I've said it before, I don't care what Dee wears. ...... But it must have been hard for you.
"...... Honestly, yeah. To be honest, I didn't really care.
I'm not sure what to make of that.
I'm not sure if this is a good idea, but I think it's a good idea.
I'm not sure if you've heard of it, but I'm sure you've heard of it. I'm not sure if it's a good thing that I'm not the only one, but I'm not the only one. ...... Not being able to wait for you to come home in the harem was more painful than I thought it would be, and I missed you. I wasn't really aware of what I was wearing.
"Dee ......
I've never really been aware of what I wore, but now that you know what I'm wearing, I finally remember. I'm not ashamed to admit that I'm not the only one who's embarrassed. ......
I'm sure you'll be able to understand why I've been so impressed with your work. ...... Deanna's blushing eyes were almost violently cute. It's a miracle that I didn't push her down right then and there. --It is a miracle that he did not push her to the ground.
And the man's desire that he held in ...... contact with her was indeed impossible to disguise. In your arms, Diana's whole body turns red and her body temperature rises softly.
I was about to pull away to see if I had scared her, but at that moment - Deanna jumped on me.
I'm not sure if it's a good idea, but it's a good idea.
"......, Dee?
"...... Sorry, dude. Kai. --Thanks.
Dee. ......
I'm glad you want me. --Whatever it is you want.
Are you scared of ......?
You don't mind if I do, do you? I'm the same way. I'm not afraid.
It's .......
Thanks for wanting it. ...... I'm sorry I can't respond right now.
There's nothing to apologize for, Dee. --Dee has nothing to apologize for, because I know everything and I'm the one who wants her.
Oh, my love. I'm not sure what to say, but I'm going to say it.
I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to do it, but I'm going to try.
"Hey, Dee. Do you remember that promise?
I'm sure you've heard of it, but I'm not sure if you have.
Yeah. Well, there's one more thing I'd like to add.
"Add ......?
"Together, we'll see the streets lined with shadows, and beyond. I want to live with Dee for as long as I live, into the future.
Deanna looks up. Her face was tinged with astonishment and ...... unconcealed joy.
"Are you sure it's ...... me?
"I want Dee. I only want Dee. ...... In fact, who knows what the future holds, maybe Dee will grow tired of me and start to hate me, and if that happens, I can't say I'll force her.
I don't think that's possible. It's not possible. ......
That's just not possible. I'm not going to say it's impossible," he said. ...... So, if you want to make a condition based on the uncertainty of the future, it's like, "As long as we want each other.
"Kai ......
"As long as Dee wants me. As long as Dee wants me. As long as she wants to live with me. --I want to live with Dee. Until the moment of my death.
Every time Kai spoke, Deanna's eyes grew wet. She wiped the water droplets from her fingers.
I want to live with Kai until the moment I die.
I want to be with ...... Kai, forever and ever. As long as Kai wants me.
It's settled.
Kai and Deanna smiled at each other, foreheads pressed together. I'm sure you'll be able to understand that I can kiss you right now, and I'm sure Deanna won't refuse, but that's why I restrained myself just in time. This is a great way to make sure that you don't get caught in the middle of the action.
In the event that you're not sure what you're looking for, there are a few things you can do. --This way, Deanna's head would be near her chest, preventing any impulsive moves.
In her arms, Deanna smiles, looking calm and ...... happy.
"--Kai. It's nice to meet you again.
It's a pleasure to meet you. --I'm a bit of a greedy bastard, but I'm not going to tell you that. I'm not sure if it's a good idea, but it's a good idea.
...... You know, it's possible that Shayla and you have been having regular problems.
In the event that you have any questions concerning where and how to use the internet, you can call us at the web site. It's a good idea to have a good idea of what you're going to be doing and how you're going to do it.
I'm sure you'll be able to find a lot of people who would like to know more about this.
I don't know. ...... In any case, when I get back to my Elgrand, I'm going to be furious and say, 'I didn't see that coming,' so I need to be prepared now.
As the conversation continued, Kai made up his mind about the dreamlike reality that he had never expected.
(No matter what happens, no matter how much the world and fate bites back, it doesn't matter anymore. As long as this is the case, I will protect Dee until the end of my life, no matter what. If the fate of the "Princess of the Forest" is to take away Dee's future, I will defeat ...... that fate in its entirety.
I'm not sure what to do. I'm not sure if this is a good idea or not, but it's a good idea.