"Let's sleep then. I'm planning to sleep as well since you're not feeling good. Or I would have gone straight to our nighttime routine," he said.
"... Stop being shameless for a moment," I mumbled. There was no point telling him that since he would go back to being indecent both with his words and actions again.
"As my wife says," he chuckled.
It was different sleeping beside him than sleeping alone. There was the warmth of another person that I never had before. And he always held me as he slept. For some reason, it made my heart flutter. Perhaps it was a normal thing for couples, yet I could not help but feel special.
He always had the ability to make me feel special and perfect, even when I knew there was no way it was true.
And to think that I would guess everything correctly was quite unbelievable. In fact, even I had no idea how I did that. I just placed the right information in the gaps and added some of my thoughts with it. But I did not expect it all to be true.
Looking at him, it seemed like he wanted to tell me this himself when he was ready. I had no idea that he was embarrassed. It was kind of cute to see him all flustered like that.
Tonight he had fallen asleep before me. It was the first time. Other times, it was always me who would fall to slumber first.
He looked very calm while sleeping. His perfect eyebrows were right in front of me and I felt the urge to touch them. But I refrained myself since he might wake up. He slept pretty lightly after all.
I had once again forgotten to ask him the question that had been in my head all day. It would be a bit weird to ask him about that, but I needed to know. If he was pretending to not want kids just because I said that I was very young for that, it would be wrong. At least, if we could talk freely about this, it would be a bit settling even if we had disagreements.
I had slept for a very long time. Because of that, I was having a hard time trying to fall asleep. And as I had eaten just a while ago, my belly was almost bursting. He had fed me too much and as he looked quite satisfied, I could not even say no to him.
He was holding me in his arms again and so tightly that I barely could move. It was like he was stopping me from getting away from him. It was strange. Even at random times, he would tell me not to leave him for anything. I did not understand this at all. Why would I bother to leave someone like him? He had given me everything I needed and even what I did not need.
And besides, even if he did not have anything but he just cared for me, I would not leave him even then. But no matter how many times I said this, he would always ask me the same thing again and again. Sometimes it felt like he was insecure.
I tried to get out of his embrace as quietly as I could so he would not wake up. But all the efforts were in vain.
"What are you doing?" he asked sleepily. Even his throaty sleepy voice was handsome. But it was not time to admire his voice.
"The restroom," I mumbled quickly. "I want to go to the restroom."
"Okay. I will come with you," he said and tried to get up.
"What're you saying? It's in our room. Why would you need to go to the restroom with me? Sleep, go to sleep."
"Will you be okay?"
"Sleep, Dem," I said and kissed him on the forehead.
"... Hey, don't be so cute right now. I might eat you up."
"Don't be silly," I laughed. "Sleep. I'll be right back."
Honestly, I did not need to go to the restroom. I just wanted to sit down for a while. Lying down was hurting my back.
The window was open. The cold wind was inflowing through it. I sat on the window stool. It was kind of amazing and refreshing.
My hair was not tied. It was flying everywhere on my face. 'Should I just cut all of it?'
Even though I had the urge to do so and I would feel nothing even if I had no hair, I could not bring myself to do it. He said he liked my hair. How could I cut my hair when he said something like that?
I grinned. Perhaps I was a fool to feel too happy just by this. Everything he said or did for me felt special. I did not know marriage life could be this amazing. I thought it would not be a good thing to get married at such an early age. After all, who in the world got married on the day they had become a legal adult? For us, it was like starting dating and getting married at the same time.
But it was not a bad thing. I had been nothing but happy all the time. I wished so much that we could stay like this our whole life. It was too much to wish for, but still, I could not help but feel greedy.
"And I was wondering where you went."
I almost fell out the window in surprise. He grabbed me quickly as if he knew it was going to happen.
"Now, now, it's not good to be alone at night. Don't you feel sleepy?"
I shook my head. "I didn't wake you up since you were sleeping soundly."
"I'm still sleepy, but the problem is you're not. Then why don't we do a thing?"
"What?"
"I will use your lap pillow and you can fall asleep too if you want to. You can sit against the headboard," he said and I knew there was no way I could escape this proposal.. Or he would bring up something indecent again.