Xia Sha squeals once she felt a warm hand suddenly grabs her wrist forcefully. Her round eyes glare at the flamboyant-looking man that suddenly fastens his pace toward the car.
"Let me go! Guan Xian!" Xia Sha gritted his teeth, exclaiming restrained anger toward Guan Xian's back.
"Are you talking to me? I thought you had even forgotten my name," Guan Xian reply with a frosty tone. He did not even bother to look back and stared at Xia Sha.
Xia Sha's lips twitched, her blood rushed to her brain to supply more oxygent that could calm her nerve. Taking another deep breath while subconsciously letting her body got pulled here and there by Guan Xian, Xia Sha hissed and blurted out, "childish."
Guan Xian's ear move reflected when he heard Xia Sha's remark. He squinted his eyes and raised his eyebrow cynically.
"I'm not talking to you after what you've done to me. It's unfair, and I won't let you get away so easily after treating me like that," Guan Xian said with a flat tone, pricking something into Xia Sha's heard.
"Alright, you don't want to talk to me, that's fine," Xia Sha nods her head, hiding her sadness with an indifferent tone coming out from her mouth.
Xia Sha could understand Guan Xian's anger toward her. But at the same time, she could not help and stop her heart from the pain every time he treated her coldly.
Guan Xian secretly watched Xia Sha pouted her lips when she heard his answer. He pressed his lower lips into a hard thin line. Guan Xian almost falls for Xia Sha's cute act unknowingly.
He tried too hard to not showing his forgiveness too quickly and failing miserably to do so. His tongue and souls have been aching to cheer Xia Sha, so he fastens his step into the car.
Both of them got into the car without conversing with each other. Tang Yu Bin sat in the driver's seat and started the car with the tense atmosphere. He carefully drove after stealing glances at Guan Xian at the back seat.
Guan Xian and Xia Sha turned their back to each other. Both of them look somber. Xia Sha leaned her head against the window, trying to make as much space possible between them, while Guan Xian frowned when he realized what Xia Sha is doing.
He grunted loudly before pulling Xia Sha's arm, cutting the long distance between them. Xia Sha falls right beside him. His hand rested over Xia Sha's shoulder, preventing her from moving.
Xia Sha found her jaw almost dropped to on her laps. She felt an odd exhilarating shiver runs through her body when he felt his touch. Xia Sha wanted to remove his hand, but he is adamant this time.
Failing to escape, Xia Sha furrowed her eyebrow and looked at Guan Xian's perfect side profile.
"I thought you are angry and aren't talking to me?" She raised her right eyebrow in a confused tone.
"I said I'm not talking to you. I didn't say I don't want to distance myself from you," Guan Xian replied without looking at Xia Sha.
"How can you-" Xia Sha almost criticized Guan Xian's weird stance but stopped when Guan Xian looked at her with cold and intense eyes.
'I've said it before. You are the one with a questionable moral. How dare you criticize me?'
Guan Xian's cocky voices and smug expression suddenly filled Xia Sha's ear. Xia Sha averted her gaze and lowered her head. She did not dare to provoke Guan Xian right now. He looks like a hungry lion that wanted to eat her alive right now.
Guan Xian seems pleased with Xia Sha's decision. He quietly looked away over the window, enjoying every tree they passed.
Silence always killed Guan Xian before. But he felt exceptional with being calm today.
In contrast to Guan Xian, Xia Sha, who used to love when no one speaks suddenly felt anxious when no one started the conversation. Added the fact that Guan Xian is guarding her with all his might.
She felt suffocated!
Calming her nerve, her hand slowly travels inside her bag. She takes her phone and quietly starts the power button, hoping her little action would go unnoticed from the hawking eagle beside her.
She is ignorant, too ignorant, and naive. Of course, Guan Xian would never let an opportunity like this went away. Precisely when Xia Sha's open her lock screen, Guan Xian said;
"Oh! You do have a phone! I thought you are living in that time where people need to send each other letters. It's so hard to notify or send information to someone without a smartphone. Nowadays, it's so convenient to communicate with each other! It's only ONE CALL AWAY!"
Guan Xian speaks right beside Xia Sha's ear, turning Xia Sha's anxiety becomes an angry flame. She gritted her teeth and shoved her phone back into her bag.
"You! I cannot be with you anymore. That's why I don't want to notify you. So don't think your satire will affect me," Xia Sha pushed Guan Xian until an arm-length distance.
"Oh? You can't be with me, or you don't want to be with me?" Guan Xian raised the corner of his lips into a smirk, slowly laying out a trap for Xia Sha.
"Does it matter?" Xia Sha scoffed, rolling her eyes at Guan Xian.
"Don't roll your eyes, and yes! Either way, it doesn't matter. It's so impolite and cruel of you to leave me after dragging my family into your's trouble!" Guan Xian's forehead creased, showing three thick lines.
"Well, I'm sorry. I did not want to, but I have to," Xia Sha replied almost instantly.
"And why you have to leave me? Did I cheat on you? Did I wrong you? Did I make you upset or cry?" Guan Xian forced a smile while posing his question, moving his shoulder to highlight his confusion.
Xia Sha suddenly stops breathing when Guan Xian finished his sentence. Things around her suddenly stop moving. In her sight, there is only Guan Xian's clear confused gaze and frustrated tone.
Xia Sha felt as if someone had forcefully taken out her heart and trampled it to the ground. More than scattered into pieces, she felt someone had forcefully-torn her apart.
Every piece of her arrogance and ignorance melted away when she realized Guan Xian's bloodshot eyes. He was in a blink of tears.
"I don't know where did I do wrong? But can you not leave me like that?" Guan Xian whispered.
Guan Xian's patience and gentle voice suddenly become a heavy slap to her face. More than sadness, she felt ashamed of herself.
This whole time, she guarded her heart with thick brick. Xia Sha thought- and believed that this man, Guan Xian, could break her heart one day. She should never give her all to him.
But what happens is, she broke his heart.
Their eyes were so fixed at her wounded heart that they did not realize. As for how Guan Xian could break Xia Sha's heart, Xia Sha could break Guan Xian's heart too. They face the same risk, yet her self-center, egomaniac-self did not even bother to think about him.
"You did not do anything that fails me. Instead, I fail you," Xia Sha said after a long silence between them.
"I fail you, and I will never be worthy of your wife," Xia Sha added, a hint of faint smile pestering her beautiful face.
She could not possibly become the daughter-in-law of the Guan family. Not after so many fucked up scandals she blew up. Guan Xiao Ni, Guan Xian, mother Guan, and father Guan might accept her flaws. And they show it clearly to her.
But what about Guan Xian's grandmother? Whom he loves dearly with his heart?
Just like grandfather Xia is precious to Xia Sha, Guan Xian holds his grandmother close to his heart. He would not possibly go against his grandmother's word. And even if he did, Xia Sha did not want him to do that.
Grandmother Guan is a fascinating woman. Xia Sha had seen her once in the past. Once when she attended Xiao Ni's debut party.
Grandmother Guan looked like she came out from Spanish infante in the baroque painting. She submits an archaic consuming beauty as she swept off people with her standoffish gaze.
Xia Sha is always looking forward to meeting the infamous grandmother Guan, the Capital city's number one socialite in the past. So imagine how shocked she got when grandmother Guan called her that night.
After Guan Xiao Ni drifted to bed and before she found out Xia Qi Feng's secret.
Her hand was trembling in excitement when the other side revealed her indentation. Xia Sha's almost formed a cold sweat as she conversed with the old lady she respected.
Who would know she would regret picking up so quickly?
Who would know that she could not keep her promises to Guan Xian after she finishes?
"Xia Sha, as much as Guan Xian's parent could be open-minded, there are some boundaries the Guan family need to lay-out. I know your mother, and I have no worries about Guan Xian's judgment. But there is one thing that I and my husband, Guan Xian's grandfather, could not tolerate. That is associating the Guan family with drugs. We can't tolerate it, not even one news about it.. I hope you could understand my words."